By Anynomous
I am a middle aged woman. My marriage was a bit late. I was married at the age of 30 in 2012. My first night with my husband was very disappointing. It was more so because I had preserved my virginity as a gift for my to be husband.
He came to me, kissed me, loved me, hugged me. All this time I was very excited and dying with anticipation. All this was quite new to me. But when the time to do the real thing came, he failed. He failed to insert into me. You cannot imagine what was my situation. After a while he slept besides me. I was awake whole night. I thought it might be due to performance anxiety thing that I read on internet. I decided to not discuss it with him.
Next night again I was horny like anything but he failed to insert. His member was not hard enough to enter into me. My nightmares had just begun. My husband was very good looking and handsome. He looked healthy from outside but… I started reading books to solve his problem.I learnt that cashew and almonds are good for men. I started putting crushed almonds in his milk and mixing it well with blender so that he may not know what I did. For next 3 days, he didn't do anything with me, no caress, no love. I uzed to hug him after he fell asleep all these three days. Fourth day I decided to give him a blow job.
Though I didn't liked it I gave him a blow job in anticipation that he would become hard enough to enter me. He actually became hard enough. I was very horny. Once I felt that he was hard enough I stopped giving him blow job and asked him to enter me. He easily entered me. Wow, that was a feeling. An other worldly joy. I had never known such pleasure existed on earth. But before I could attain my final bliss his member became soft again. Though I enjoyed, I felt something was still missing. I wanted to enjoy more. I had found out a way to prepre him for getting enjoyment. This continued for about 2 years. After two years my life changed a day. I remember my husband's nephew had come to my place for an exam. He lived in another city.
I accidentally saw his hard member. In fact he was masturbating in his room. He had not locked the room from inside. I had entered the room to call him for having dinner, when I saw his fully erect member. Oh my god. The moment I saw his member, I started conspiring to get it inside me. All my conscience had gone away.I had completely turned immoral. That day I learnt why love is called blind. I literally became blind with lust. I didn't disturb him that time but I was determined to enjoy with his member. My mind started scheming. Devil in my mind had made me bold. That night when my husband was sleeping I took a very misadventurous step. I boldly sneaked into the room of my husband's nephew.
Light was off, room was dark and the young lad was sleeping. I directly took his sleeping member in my hand and started giving him a blow job. His member was like stone in no time. For the first time I had felt a truly erect member. It was amazing. The boy had clearly woken up but was enjoying the service. That night he made me complete woman. I came thrice that night. I don't know whether he recognised me in the dark or not as I had a maid too living with me. I decided to act completely normal next day. The boy’s behaviour towards me was also normal. Perhaps he had recognised me but opted to act normal.
Since then, he started frequently visiting us on one or the other pretext. During his every visit, all the night he stayed with us, I followed the same routine. I sneaked in his room in night, give him a blow job and got full enjoyment in return. Though, after a few encounters he must have recognised me but the routine was same. Next day both of us acted completely natural. One thing I forgot to tell you, during all these acts neither he uttered a word nor I. It was a completely silent act. It went on for about 4 years. Now I was feeling guilty.
I had even become mother of his son during this time. Guilt started overpowering me. I gradually started to distance myself from the boy. Only way for me was to some how make my own husband able enough to enjoy with him. I started searching on internet for the solution of his problem. I learnt that viagra was the solution. I also found that it was also available in gelly form. I decided to buy it for my husband in gelly form. I arranged a burqa for me to hide myself and purchase gelly viagra. one day I took out my scooty and went to adjacent town. I did not want to purchase it from my town out of fear. I purchased in bulk. Brought it home. After that one night I offered my husband that gelly saying that my friend has given me this gelly.
You should try it. He took that. Just after 30 minutes when I gave blow job to my husband his member was hard like that boy. That was the first time I enjoyed with my husband. Now every third or fourth day I started using this trick. Recently while reading a book on Kindle app on my mobile I learnt that viagra had side effects and a new medicine with chemical name tadalafil had come into the market which was safer and was effective for upto 3 days. This information was very crucial for me. I decided to replace jelly thing with tadalafil and bought one full pack of tadalafil next day. I gave it to my husband with milk.
So he didn't know what I did to him. I must say tadalafil enabled me to enjoy with my husband every night. Every third night I started giving him one tadalafil tablet powder mixed well in a glass of milk and I started enjoying every night. I learnt some other things too from that book like acupressure for better sex power and even a medicine to ward off side effects of these medicines. My life is on track now. I am fully satisfied with my husband now. By the way my husband loves jelly viagra and I offer him that too occasionally. This was my darkest secret.
By the way if anyone is interested in knowing about the book I read on Kindle it was self treatment of erectile dysfunction : safe and side effect free methods.
EDIT: 1. Someone has asked the name of book. Though I have already told about the book I am repeating it, it was SELF TREATMENT OF ERECTILE DYSFUNCTION :SAFE AND SIDE EFFECT FREE METHODS. It is also available on Kindle unlimited subscription, that is where I read it.
I hope it helps. By the way, thanks a lot for sprinkling your love on this love starved lady.
EDIT2: 1. I have got a good bashing here. Thanks for it, I deserved it. Burden of my karma would have lessened a bit by your bashing. But do you think that I was proud of what I did? I am ashamed. Men, had you been in my place you would have become drunkard by now. Every night you would have gone to a new prostitute. Male chauvenism at its best! Isn't it?
2. For my english. Yeah it is poor. I accept it. I am not a shakespeare. But the point is, haven't I conveyed my horrible doings to you all? Is there any doubt in anybody's mind? I shared my story to prevent others from making the same mistakes and in place of losing heart and committing suicide go for other alternatives. Yes, my english grammar and communication skill were poor and so I couldn't convey this point in my original answer.
3. For the book thing. Do you think that only men should now about viagra and tadalafil. Many of you might have phD on viagra and tadalafil and moat of the men too know about it but what about ladies? You have no idea how much unaware most women are about these drugs. Good number of rural and even small townships ladies don't know what is sanitary pad and you are talking about viagra. I mentioned about the book just to help them. Book could have been anyone but i mentioned specifically this book because it was available for free on Kindle unlimited and contains some real information. If you don't agree with me first read the book and compare it with other books available on this subject on Kindle unlimited. Bull shit books are priced like gold and content can be summarised in two words ‘use viagra'. If you don't like the book write a poor review for it. Who has prevented you from doing so.
4. My age. Though I don't owe a reply to it, I want to ask you if a women is expected to menopause at 45 then isn't 36 middle age?
5. My child? Yes he is my child, I have given birth to him. Neither my husband nor the boy knows it. I am a mother and that's it. If I have committed something wrong do I need to die? No, I am here to live, whatever may come my way.
6. For those, who feel my story is fake FACTS ARE STRANGER THAN FICTION. Every one faces it at one or the other point of time in one's life.
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